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Something just simply needs to change. I just do not find enjoyment in anything anymore. I thought it was just the weather change at first. But I think there is just a lot more to it. Maybe something I don't want to admit or something I have just known all along. I am not sure about anything anymore.



Halloween is my favorite holiday always has been and I always get all the decorations up at the beginning of October. Here it is the night before and I still have not felt the desire to want to decorate. I just rather sleep it all away.



Days turn into weeks and weeks into month and nothing ever.... changes. Same in day in day out.

I feel so totally out of place. Talking to friends on the phone is one thing but it can't replace the actual interaction in person. I am a social creature, I don't like being boxed in all the time with no way to go anywhere.



Ya I guess you could say I am pretty damn depressed.. But who wouldn't be when there is never any good news, just the same shit over and over again. I am tired of hurting all the damn time it has become over whelming. I am feeling like I need a trip back home for a bit. But I have to think if I can actually handle another long trip phyiscally. It takes a lot out of me. But if I don't do something soon I think I am going to lose my damn mind. The weather is aweful up at home right now with this freak snow storm, but I am hoping that will pass and I can go home some where between Thanksgiving and Christmas. I need that break from the same thing over and over again with never any moving forward.

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PandorasBx
18:33 Oct 30 2011

*hugs you tight* Maybe a trip home is just what you need hun.

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ladySnowStrixx
21:41 Oct 30 2011

AAAWWW , sis I'm so sorry I wish you felt better but I know what you mean so your not going crazy

I get the same feelings sometimes too.

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TheGreenLady
22:27 Oct 30 2011

Love you sis.

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